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  • The Life I Crave

    I spoke with a close friend the other day about dreams and how my choices aren’t actively contributing to them. She is absolutely right and it stings to realize how many hours were devoted to mobile games versus daydreams I hold close. It feels like an 8:1 ratio, if you also include the endless scroll…

  • How I Got Here

    Content warning: mentions of psychosis, delusions, hallucinations, paranoia, mental illness, bipolar disorder, hospitalization, depression, self-loathing, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, anxiety, mental illness stigma. I am safe and stable now. This talks about past experiences. Yesterday was World Mental Health Day, and I am here to remind you that I’m a bipolar mental health advocate with…

  • Artist Book Dummy WIP: Fortune Cookie Slips

    I took an introduction to artist book class at the San Francisco Center for the Book with Matt Runkle and that was fantastic! I always wanted to make an artist book and I learned different ways of binding and crafting books. I created a pocket accordion book from the Making Waves: Intro to the Accordion…

  • (be)longing: #playlistdiaries – a collaboration with Flash Thrive

    Album Art by Krista of Flash Thrive ** NOTE: I unfortunately wasn’t able to complete my project in time for the newsletter but I will do my best to finish the update by midnight PST tonight. Thank you for your patience! ** Welcome to my first blog of my new domain: eileenramos.com ! It’s a…

  • I want to be sincerely happy with you

    I didn’t understand how growth isn’t linear until tonight, when I took inventory of my life and reflected on how each segment felt: For all the good I am facing ahead, I dearly want to run. Just drop everything and go. This isn’t along the lines of suicidal ideation. I am no longer there. But…

  • before I’m 30

    This is my before I hit 30 to do list. I used the daruma stamp from Baum-kuchen which is an awesome analogue stationary shop in Los Angeles. I would love to go there some day. With the stamp, you color in one eye then write down your goal or intention. Then once you accomplish it,…

  • Being Mentally Ill with #WalangHiya

    In honor of #WomxnsHistoryMonth2017, I’m collaborating with AnneMarie of Formation of a Filipinx American where I wrote a blog to reclaim the phrase #WalangHiya, which has been traditionally used to shame Filipinxs. Her edits were crucial for me to dive deeper into how shame badly affected my mental health, and how speaking about my mental illness openly allowed…

  • In Full Color 2017, featuring my monologue “Psychotic Break”, starts TONIGHT til Sunday!

    I should’ve been writing about this from the get go when I found out New Year’s Day that I will be part of In Full Color 2017. It’s a Women of Color production where the actresses perform monologues and poetry. Last year, my first monologue ever “Aswang Presidente” was printed in their anthology. From tonight…

  • you’re one step braver, little one

    If I want to become and be known as a mental health advocate, I’m going to need to speak honestly about ALL aspects of my mental illness. I’m bipolar and I’ve had severe depression for years and have experienced mania. Depression is relatively easy to talk about since it’s the most discussed and most publicized…

  • strange but enriching idea #003

    Originally written on December 22nd, 2016 @ 5:28 pm and now expanded. For more strange but enriching ideas, go here. Create works that get sold in Art-o-mat® – Don’t Go ‘Round Artless! They’re basically converted cigarette machines that you can buy affordable art from! So neat. I already bought a prototype package so I can…