How I Got Here

Selfie of the author, a light-skinned Filipina American woman, showing the full length of her very long black hair reaching the bottom of her rib cage. She’s wearing eye glasses and a big red lipped smile, her right hand on her hip while wearing a dark green dress with flowers all over Content warning: mentions…

listen to your body and not what you want to embody

Content Warning: psychosis, delusions, mental health, mental illness, eating disorder, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, toxic, insanity, depression, hospital, bipolar disorder I am safe and stable now, this recollects past experiences along with with my present situation. Image description: From first page of my “Words I Held: An Autobiographical Tale of Intrigue” ushered by Elisabeth Faye…

I want to be sincerely happy with you

I didn’t understand how growth isn’t linear until tonight, when I took inventory of my life and reflected on how each segment felt: For all the good I am facing ahead, I dearly want to run. Just drop everything and go. This isn’t along the lines of suicidal ideation. I am no longer there. But…

I will not hold back in my love for you

I'm noticing some changes to my being. I honestly feel like I'm on the cusp of another stage of growth. Due to the following: I check in with friends a lot more often, esp when they told me earlier how they weren't doing well, feeling sad, or struggling with something. I don't ask "how are…