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- Poem Comic: PleaseFor December 14, 2023 Deep Dive into Poetry Comics Class Reading, taught by Madeleine Jubilee Saito through Push/Pull. I really enjoyed the class and learned so much. It opened me to new ways of experimenting and I’m excited to create even more. Made through Canva Pro
- I long to harm you – an essay for the Sadgirls Rage Art ShowI’m late to announce this but I’m part of the Sadgirls Rage Art Show in Seattle at the Blue Cone Studios, curated by Heartless Twyla. It’s an amazing art show featuring “Dark feelings expressed in bright colors. Power that comes from soft hearts in constant collision with a relentless world”. I was graciously invited by my friend and curator Heartless Twyla and contributed the below essay. You can go to the closing reception tomorrow Monday, August 28th from 4:30 PM – 7:30PM. Twyla worked really hard to put together an exhibition that’s deeply vulnerable, wide-ranging, and empowering. I wish I… Read more: I long to harm you – an essay for the Sadgirls Rage Art Show
- Before Punk Island 2023Oh dear lawd, I haven’t updated this site in so long that I still have an unpublished post right before the 2022 Punk Island lol ugh. But that’s okay, I’ve been struggling with imposter syndrome a lot this past year, but I’m going to make more of an effort to be diligent with my passions and desires. Which means I’ll be updating this site more frequently. I wanna blog on here and post works in progress. Really establish this site as a treasure trove of beloved works and thoughts. I’m vending for the third year in a row at Punk… Read more: Before Punk Island 2023
- Pre-Punk IslandHi! This site is under construction as I changed hosts. But I wanted to have something up as I’m tabling today for Punk Island. I’m a little nervous because this will be my first time vending in years. But I had a blast at the last one in 2019 and it’s always good to meet new people and be in community. Plus I miss zinefests. I’m going to discover so many great bands and sell & give away works I love. I’m bringing dollar store wedding bubbles for kids to play with. It’ll make my heart happy to see random… Read more: Pre-Punk Island
- The Life I CraveI spoke with a close friend the other day about dreams and how my choices aren’t actively contributing to them. She is absolutely right and it stings to realize how many hours were devoted to mobile games versus daydreams I hold close. It feels like an 8:1 ratio, if you also include the endless scroll and switching accounts to avoid life and my emotions haha ugh. So what do my dreams look like? What decisions can I make today and commit to that will allow for their fruition? This blog is a start. I dream of consistently updating my namesake,… Read more: The Life I Crave
- These Dreams Will Not Wither Inside of MeIt’s 5:29 in the morning yet I’m at my most alert, despite being awake the entire night. An internal fire has begun and I’m tending to it now through the words you’re reading. Lately the thing I hate about myself the most is how I talk and write about these honestly wonderful ideas, but have made no movement forward beyond some minor note taking. For months now, perhaps many. When I try to start, I get overwhelmed and tear up, mostly over foolish men, and other moments where I feel like no one will ever romantically love me. Or even… Read more: These Dreams Will Not Wither Inside of Me
- How I Got HereContent warning: mentions of psychosis, delusions, hallucinations, paranoia, mental illness, bipolar disorder, hospitalization, depression, self-loathing, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, anxiety, mental illness stigma. I am safe and stable now. This talks about past experiences. Yesterday was World Mental Health Day, and I am here to remind you that I’m a bipolar mental health advocate with a history of psychoses, delusions, severe depression, anxiety, and suicidal ideation and attempts. I started to have psychotic breaks when I was 19 and had an emergency hospitalization when I was 21 as a senior in college, back in 2010. Originally they thought I had… Read more: How I Got Here
- listen to your body and not what you want to embodyContent Warning: psychosis, delusions, mental health, mental illness, eating disorder, suicidal ideation, suicide attempt, toxic, insanity, depression, hospital, bipolar disorder I am safe and stable now, this recollects past experiences along with with my present situation. Image description: From first page of my “Words I Held: An Autobiographical Tale of Intrigue” ushered by Elisabeth Faye Stranathan/Eden/Me from the 444bidden Fructus project. An immersive show with an amazing, elaborate package. Highly recommend! Surrounding the composition notebook are a black gel pen that Elisabeth sent me and a green paint marker, all on top of a wooden tray table. The lined notebook… Read more: listen to your body and not what you want to embody
- Reverse PandoraFor the Text and Image workshop I took with Simone Kearney at Brooklyn Poets, I wrote a poem titled “Reverse Pandora”. The prompt was to bring an interesting object and write about it in different voices and detailing. I enjoyed writing it and you can see a video of me reciting here Content warning: psychosis, mention of 9/11, suicidal ideation, mental illness, trauma, self-loathing, delusions I actually shared my poem at the Brooklyn Poets Fall Workshop Showcase this past Monday and it was really wonderful. I loved being there, and everyone is so talented and interesting. And Jason Koo read… Read more: Reverse Pandora
- Artist Book Dummy WIP: Fortune Cookie SlipsI took an introduction to artist book class at the San Francisco Center for the Book with Matt Runkle and that was fantastic! I always wanted to make an artist book and I learned different ways of binding and crafting books. I created a pocket accordion book from the Making Waves: Intro to the Accordion Book class I took with Chang Yuchen at the Center for Book Arts. That was also really great. So with that pocket accordion book, I decided that I wanted to involve fortune cookie slips like I always longed for in an artist book for well… Read more: Artist Book Dummy WIP: Fortune Cookie Slips
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